A couple of weeks ago, I lost my dad. His death didn/t really come as a surprise. He was 86 and had been having health problems. What was a surprise was the double hit that came when he passed. I knew I would feel his passing. I knew it would hit me hard, because I felt we were pretty close. However, when he passed, it brought back nearly everything that I felt when I lost my wife. It took me right back to LeAnne's illness and her passing. It was very difficult to be involved in the funeral arrangements and things dealing with Dad's passing. I suppose that we are never really as prepared for a loss like his. I was even less prepared to relive hers. It might not have affected me as much, but my father went through many of the same things that LeAnne did in the death process.
I know that time will help to soften the pain. I will miss him and I will push hard to keep myself busy. I know from experience that I will weather it okay. I will just keep doing what I've been doing, working hard to live up to my potential. That is the least I can do to show my parents how grateful I am for their influence and their teachings all through my life.
Until next time,
Jene
I recently finished a project that I started about16 years ago. I was actually working on two different stories at the same time while my wife was being treated for breast cancer. I wasn’t certain that I would ever be able to finish those stories or not. One I was writing by hand at doctors’ offices, waiting rooms, testing centers and other places where I passed the time waiting for LeAnne’s treatments and testing.
The other story I wrote at home on my computer. The story I just finished was the one I wrote at home. I call it Dominion. It is a science fiction series. I just published the first novel in the series. This story was what I used to defray some of the stress of work, home, and other pressures during our experiences with cancer. It was an easy story to write, but it was very difficult to go back to finish. Every time I tried, I found myself reliving the hard times at home.
My intent is to finish the other series also, however, I haven’t found the courage to tackle that one yet. That one was a little closer to the very painful moments of LeAnne’s battle.
When I finally do go back to do that one, I’ll let you know.
In the meantime, I feel exhilarated to have pushed past the discomfort to finally conquer that milestone. It was nothing like clearing out the closet, or boxing her letters, still, the difficulty was similar. To have it done, brightens my day.
Until next time, (which I hope will not take quite as long) find the light in everything, especially when finishing unfinished projects.
Jene
I know that time will help to soften the pain. I will miss him and I will push hard to keep myself busy. I know from experience that I will weather it okay. I will just keep doing what I've been doing, working hard to live up to my potential. That is the least I can do to show my parents how grateful I am for their influence and their teachings all through my life.
